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Fortunate = Flying

Hey ppl :) just came back from malaysia .
HMM after this trip i realise something, i am really fortunate....... after seeing all the people living on kay loong.(dunno how spell) living without a goal, day by day..... in the poorest condition.... i realise that i am very fortunate to have all these.... my good friends always there... no matter wat happen , they always be there.... i got this feeling that i really missed out the whole 2009 of my life, with so many things i need to face and think about..... i neglected a lot of people..... i was to stubborn..... i neglecte my work..... and i really neglect my dreams for things, i didnt wanna to face..... now ... regrets..... i am truthly sorry to really some people(not mentioning here) but deep inside you , you will noe... and i really want to thank those boys at malaysia who opened up my eyes to the actual world... the place where i feel pain and i will get tired of working in....

I was really inspire when i ask them this question and they replied this
Melvyn: Hmmm, have you all think of what to do when you all are grown up or in a few years, like what is your goal.
Malaysia boys: No , when dun have goals.....(Long pause) but i want to grow up to have one... no matter how long it takes... to fly....


And i feel a sense of warmth..... what is my dreams? tad is the answer:)

Dead.....

Hey to those who still got come here...... i remember saying i will delete this blog:) but i just cant delete this blog, maybe is just too much happy memory to me, i was ready to delete , but as my curoser move to the button , i dindt press it, .... cause i realise tad this is the only glimpse of light i can see thru the past, so this is like a picture to me..... past is always beautiful.... the kind of time where you just get to noe tad there is some one there.... but things changes ... some things can seems to stay as u wan... maybe is how u change it but, u didnt noe.... if i could make myself turn back to how i was... i will go for it.. but i realise, this is wat u have done, u cant change it , only facing it and solve it.... wat u have lied u have.... some things u just have to brush it....

YEA indeed, i have faith, in him... however, there is jsut too much confusing things going on.... for all i noe, i missed it, if i could turn back time, i think i would cherish eery second of it, and not causing this again... because the thought of losing 9sss is unbearable..... is far too important, changing take time they say... it take courage and support i can say... i failed.... i falied as anything, in fact i failed in everything........ tad leaves sucide? i duuno tad is wat i mean by confuse.... IMY it is just too Inevitable

The last post

Hey ppl, guess you noe my blog dead :) but is ok , this will be he last post :), i will remove my blog W.E.F. 19.4.09:).

This post is a poem i have change it to suit my feeling :) enjoy.

I grieve, and dare not show my discontent;
I love, and yet am forced to seem to run;
I do , yet dare not say i ever meant;
I seem stark mute, but inwardly do prate.
I am , and not; I Freeze and yet am burned,
Since from myself another self i turned.


My care is like my shadow in the sun---
Follows me flying, flies when i pursue it,
Stands, and lies by me, doth what i have done;
His too - familiar care doth make me rule it.
No meansi find to rid him from my chest,
Till the end of things it be supprest.



Some gentler passion slide into my mind,
For i am soft, and made of melting snow;
Or be more cruel, love, and so be kind.
Let me float or sink, be high or low;
Or let me live with some more sweet content,
Or let me DIE, and so forget what friendship ever meant.

That the last post, hope you enjoy it :) sry :)

A friend in need is a friend indeed

Hi ppl, long time no blog le rite, haha cause got reason, :) any way , i blog cause back by popular demand, hahah (Thick skin sio) :), yep any way sry some of the prefect who wanted to change duty but i really got no time to go and see aval slot for you all, and i noe some of u all sae dun want this dun want dat, hmm give me some time i need catch up my studies 1st ok and this fri got PTM (sec 1) so i see u all there, time for socializing hahah :). any way, i need time to adapt to sec 4 too, need to go for SYF (Harmonica band ) too Aim Gold with honers if that the correct spelling , haha

Any way HELLO to the new sec 1 in the band

Good luck 4 those going SYF too :)


Back to my life ba, ppl are changing too, dunno why, after i EMo i realise a lot of thing has happen, i will try my best to hep u all ok. and dun worry ------Ahem...... i will alwyas be the one there for you, no matter wat ok :) must have confidence ok :)

And to some ppl, some thing are not to be judge by one side only, the other party will get hurt too, there is a reason for a person to do that, scrafice is sometimes, needed. A good friend is the one who bail you out of jail. A true friend is the one who stays in it with u.
i willbe the true friend ok, no matter wat happens, there is still me. and too all my firends i will always be a part of you :) you know who to call.
Please understnad some of my action, there is a reason behind it, that i wont harm any one. i realsie a good friend is not you to find, it finds you. when you are indeed a friend to the friend in need :)

YHHB and YHPB JYJY all the wayyy

New found me

Hi ppl, sry i didnt change blogskin again, cause this few days very lazy to turn on computer heheh:P .

Hmm any way , today was late for meeting hai, i break the trust again, last few weeks still never late now like hai, but anyway i disappoint ppl again......
Any way today cheng Du ppl came again, must interact with them after recess, hai, skip lesson again, i feel very guilty cause once miss i cant catch up anymore, and now is not like then, cause ppl change..... and today PS hiang teck again, oh so sry, ps you 3 times le, sry ....

But went for high acheivers trng again, this time i saw coach isaac, sabby and shawn :).
Coach shawn was taking sec 3 4 D.I.S.C. sabby was taking the sec 2 for peer mediation, and isaac took us the sec 4 for The K&P framework and the topic was, Encourage the heart.

I really did learn a lot as i find out tad all this while i was very hopless, so sucky, i didnt understad ppl and keep disappointing ppl, i realise tad i keep mixing up stuff together to the wrong details,

But now since i understand the mistake now, i will find the solution, to set a goals for myself and keep thing seprate.

Mdm salina was right after all this stress, from peers, studies, work , prefect band, i was about to explode as no one was there for me to encourage me , even the person i hope to have didnt not.

I realsise tad i really am stupid to think i can relay on ppl, in the end , the one who suffers is me.
The pain i had, was not shared to anyone, no one came , no one ask.
But however, i am self dependant now, i noe i need to stand up after my fall, after wat coach isaac have told me, i realise tad i can change the mindset of myself , the useless one, to understand wat all my prefect think and help them find wat leadership means, althought me myslf is not a good leader, but i can teach them from my EXp , and the most i want to chage is the mind set of ppl in YHHB, i want the ppl in yhhb noe the importance of goals and mindset and how powerful can this become, Yhhb if to believe our goals and mindset, SYF 2009 gold with honers is OURS,

To all obstacles, ppl who try to stop me. stress and friendship,
Here i come .

Glass walls

Guess ppl near me, are wondering wats wrong with me since the start of 2009, seriously i dun noe, i would really like to know the answer myself.

• I got info wrong
• Do wrong things
• Cant study well
• drifting away
• hear wrong things
• say wrong things
• Think wrong things
• feel wrong things
• say wrong things
• plan wrong things
• assume wrong things
• play wrong things
• learn wrong things

I seriously dun know wat the hell is wrong with me, in school , i did so many things wrong, day by day, min by min, it nevers stops

why ppl ask, well i tell you I DUN EVEN KNOW WAT IS REALLY HAPPENING,

everyday i disappointed ppl, even if dun blame me, but i still kepp disappointing, till i ..i. .. , i dun know how much i owe le, and i am damm irresponsible, for the case of the jacket,

Even when ask weather the student can move in the hal, i even check with TIC but when comes , the info change again, and see me as i got wrong things again, BUT I DID MAKE SURE , but as i always say i will be still in the wrong.

DO YOU KNOW HOW FASTURATING IS TAD, no i may be smilling out side, i am bleeding painfully,PAINFULLY inside ,the same pain i receive on 2007, the pain tad i thought will never come again, but it does. i do not want to open it as i will never want it to seprate, which i thought will last forever, but by the looks of it now, the pig is closer, now, for i may be usless, i understand the importances of but i hope it will be the best for, however the ones left will never feel good.

The box i lift is getting heavier, the helping are drifting. even the ones i loved and cherish.

the pain will stay , in the hole tad can never open, the disappointment tad expose is too much to seek for forgiveness toak9. sry doesnt seems to be, i agree.

Thepain will never stop till 9k forgives the bads.

apologys are squared, no sincerity came, heart bleeding tad cause this pain.

were said to be tied , feeling is different now, a senior idoit and a catchy drama, were said to be foever.

A hidden friend

aLOHA ppl :) Blog again, haha after a few days chiong homework , dying soon :).
Oh any way , i relaise something tad i find it touching,
Every time i will make prefect do stuff tad they are suppose to do and some of them will like BO chap, well i experience it and i shall share it. On the 1st day of sch, suppose to do some ushering and helping with the new sec 1 . i was not late, in fact i was damm early, however, thing went wrong too, i disappinted a lot of ppl, but i have to keep a postive attuide as i have to be the speaker of prize presenattion later, so i try not to talk to keep me sadness low, as i was totally freak out, as thing wasnt wat i plan.
But i have noticed tad other than the usual ppl i disappointed, i made someone ppl tad trust in me disappointed too , like mr su, and my sec 4s,
But sec 4 i did not expect you to be so strong even without a leader, all i can say are u all are aready are, just tad i didnt give u all the space to showcase yours. and sec 3s you are not bad as well, both u all are auto piloet, it really touch me a lot, instead of me learning to change ,u all changed me. To someone well u did not lose a friendship but is just tad i do not have the face to face u all anymore, i am to embrassed. But i am not usless :) thx hiang teck for tad one sentance, i got the hint aready.:) is juts tad i need to have more intergrity and more brains tad s all :) see hiang teck i figure it out le :). ok my dearest sec 4 let work together to leave a legacy to the jrs to let them shine, we can do it. !!!!

Wats a synopsis

Hi ppl, hmm this post is special made form some ppl who keep askin me wats a synopsis, well heres you defination, i hope

A synopsis is primarily a condensation, an outline or a short presentation of an article, of an essay or of a book.
A synopsis is not a list of opinions, or an examination of the feelings and/or conscious states, e.g. likes, dislikes, preferences, annoyances, etc., of the writer of the synopsis.
If the writer wants to addend his or her reactions, he or she must take care to explain all the relevant points in the original article reacted to.

What Should A Synopsis Look Like?

Part A: The Body of the Synopsis -- the minimal conditions
1. First indicate a concern of the author, or a point argued by the author. A complex article will have more than one of these but treat them one by one.
2. What secondary points does the author make to establish the importance of his or her concern, or to reach the conclusion of his or her argument?
3. What reasons does the author give for these secondary points?
4. Answer questions 1, 2, and 3 for each important item in the article.Part B: Reaction and

Evaluation - This is ALWAYS secondary!

1. Your personal judgments must be directed only at items brought up in Part A.
2. Give reasons for your judgments. These can be the citation of counterevidence, concerns about the consequences of the points made by the author, or similar things. These reasons are never just your feelings. Your responsibility as a scholar is to give the reader of your synopsis -- assumed to be someone other than a close friend of yours -- good reasons for agreeing with your evaluations.

New year

Aloha ppl, long time no meet le:) and happy new year hahah, is 2009 now , iss 2008 ba. all the fun we have together, fun tad last forever :). thx ppl for all the help in 2008, i will work hard in 2009:).
Hmm toking abt new year, maybe i be changing my blog skin and etc, need ask ppl for help cause aku it idiot hahah.:)
Sry i didnt update so long le cause went to many place, taiwan and malaysia and thailand... so busy havin fun tad hw all never do almak OMG need chiong le:)
Cca open house also coming le, and i wish all the sec 1 coming into yhss, good luck:) and sec 2 tad have become sec 3 too:) and my fellow sec 4s and 5s good luck for O level man towards excellence.
Couple of thing to update this year, hmm

1. Drop Bio
2. In 4e5
3. Made more friends
4. still disappointing ppl
5. Got fatter(Nafa how sio)
6. Gotton stupid

Thing i need to change

• Get skinner
• Get closers to my bros
• Get clever
• Stop disappointing ppl
• dun wear such a big hat with my small head
• firm
• seriousness
• attidue
• New bike

Things i dun wan change

• My close buddies
• my house
• parents
• love ones
• be in yhhb
• my brother ship with ppl

Hai so many thing in 2009 man, and is my o level grad year so sad, i will spend all the best time with my buddies and not missing evey moment of it. before we grad :)

Ok need go dream land le, tmr chiong hw at jurong spring mac, at 11 any one wan join?? zzzzzz le

Post

Hi ppl , yes i am ok thx 4 the concern. Ya you are right augustine, should go 4 holiday and YES i am going to TAIWAN on 5 decc to 11 dec...
ANy way today was a weird day man, went back to sch to do some mass dance, and was disappointed to see so little consent form return hai, only 20 + , ppl this camp is our few heads sweat and blood i hope u all will appraciate. t will benifit u alot :)

After tad had har band meeting at my house, and this dumb me hai as wat hiang teck say HOPLESS LA.... so noob in com, hai..... lucky got nick man...
Any way after tad went mapling, :) with a few close friend, lame rite hai , but it is use to destress too,.
Oh Our Dear HIANG TECK(JOSHUA) going korea tmr hhaha, wish him YI LU SHUN FENG, remember to get something for us hahahah miss u ba :).
Okgtg now tmr i have program too

Oh God , how powerful can you be,

So much tad you can plan my next move and ppl move on me.

But wat doees it mean?

Are givin me a sign?

Are you calling me?

if you really want me to be one,

show me a sign

a powerful one

so much tad i can feel tad love in you...

Thank Hiang teck for the care and knowledge ,and Nicholas for the defination and Daniel for the idea . You Noe wat it mean :)

Bye Bye Hiang teck and Nicholas:)

What is wrong with me!!!!!

Wat is wrong with me!!! i cant believe i did this !!!!! just because i cant take the stress i am havin now, i shouted at my mom, throw temtrum!!! how can this be, and i treat my friends this way asking and making sure of them wat is wrong with me !!!!! i cant believe it !!!

LEGENDARY LEADERS SUMMIT'08

LEGENDARY LEADERS SUMMIT@JALAN BATERA CAMPSITE 18 nov -21nov
This leadership camp was the bestcamp i have ever been, no matter how nice other camp was, it cannot replac this camp.
This is the camp tad really inspire me to really believe my self and hvethe confidence to lead.Althoght i was tought, wakin up at 2am to donight walk and going thru mentally and physically challange, this has really help me find my strength and weakness, tad i have nevr known.
This camp has also allow me t network with other leaders to allow me to noe tad i am notth only leader who walkthis path, i have my friends around me, the qoute from the instructor:A leader`s path is not easy to walk /follow but with perserverance,confidence and the right mindset/values, you can do it.... and a special meassage from an instructor : Melvyn, Believe in yourself, yo can do it.. if you dun believe in yurself, eople cant believe in you. Make the change you want inyur school, no matter wat, thre will always be some one who believe in you:).
I must say tad this was the messge tad make me keep thinking the whole of the nite, dun worry i will make te change, from this post onwards i am a change melyn.
I will leave a legacy for my jrs to folo. the camp was really very nice , we had dance music and lectur, but this was no ordinary, every one there have a common vision , toenjoy the camp, we really REALLY had the time of our life, to really enjoyig eading and ejoyin the dance, it was so touching when everyone raise their cup to cheer for our sucess.
The thinking tad i am head prefect knowing so less of my people and leading almost to failure was my greatest regret in my secondry scho life, i have never take the intergrity to noe more of my mates and alwaysgiving nicholas to do the job, s nicholas , the last day of the camp on your public apology i accept it but we are quits now, you have helped me too much now. Thx Hiang teck for the suppo to, and eugene goh, now ishall continue this journey with the least thinkin of ppl are there to spot my mistajke, i must hav my own integrity.The prefectorial has been in the stage of storming for too long, now my vision for the board is to move to the next step, norming, if you dun understand is ok, i will teach during the prefect camp. i will sow seed into the sec 2s now , to allow them to outshine us te seniors, to make mmy vision to come true, i cantbe the one who will eventually bring the board into the next level, but i can be the one who start it.
Prefetorial board, GET READY FOR THE NEXT LEVEL,i m coming in with a boost of confidence, no matter how mny times i fail, but FAILURE IS A STEP FOWARD, i will never gi up cause i noe i believe in my se, and there is someone there w believe i ca do it too. Here coms the new MELVYN :):)

My new Hand phone G705 SONY ERICSSON:)

Today, my very good dd bought me a new phone hahah, sony G705 HAHAH cool rite

Include bluetooth headset tooo

Special post

Hi ppl, this post is specially 4 someone, well it happens like this i dunno why i felt this wayy but it is just tempeoroy anger, some times i feel that doing something for the one close to you is usless, i mean i dun feel the same way, all i have been doing is caring but i feel like it is harming me??
I mean actually we were going to do something, but then after tad the time dunno why like rubber like tad all of a sudden drag drag drag, then the days plan is ruin, hai, but nvm,
Dunno how to say, hmm but this is just temp anger so dunt care abt it , ok ..., tmr i be fine :)
LOL but this is just a lamster laming on something, so relax :) understand ...... u noe mood swing, haha, any way i got a bit slight fever now so got anything call me ok :)haha , i am really a lamster...

Back from hang zhou

Hi ppl i am back from hang zhou, i miss all of you so much , any way there are some photo below on my trip, but not all cause i dunno how to upload all:p. oh yes brother, i got it stop spamming, hahah.

China was fun especially the weather very relaxing, not as humid as singapore:)

However it is very dangerous there as if u are not use to the weather there, it may be dangerous 4 u :), the first day was just some admin this lor, going to shanghai, and ther take a painful 4 hrs of bus jurony to hang zhou.

The food there was very salty and very sweet adn damm oily, but we have to respect their calture, so we just ate .

The 2nd day, we went to the famos da mao xiang primary school, it was the main organiser 4 the event. the toilet was so damm short, i can event see wat is the ppl beside doing, you noe wat i mean. oh and our bus got into an accident, it hit the overhead bridge lamp, and shatter our window, lucky no one was injured.

The 3rd day , we were still practicing 4 the competition, but we went to see the opening cermony of the 7th asia pacfic harmonica festival, and MR TANG our conductor played a solo haha so nice

The 3rd day we still practice 4 the competition, and i was interview by some china tv on this event and u noe my chinese was so u noe, i had to struggle to answer their question, hai so shameful :p.

The 4th day opur competition came, i heard tad all the singapore solo and duet lost left our yuhua sec.

we had a tought time fighting against all the other country.

Finally when the result came althought we lost the main band cat.

BUT WE WON CHAMPION FOR THE CREATIVE CAT arrrrr i was so happy, 1st in the 7th asean harmonica festival ,

The 4th day , we went to xi hu, it is in one of the pic below, wa it is so relaxing.

The 5th and 6th day was the same sight seeing, i had a great experience for this trip .

getting to noe more abt my ppl. the next objective for YHHB IS syf 2009 GOLD WITH HONOUR OK?? HAHA, LET WORK HARD TOGETHER :)

sOME OF hANG ZHOU PIC

Me and shannon at hang zhou

Nice rite the place

After shopping

Me and Nu er

:)

Sry this is just some of the pic in hang zhou, cause i dunno noe how to upload everything

You can find all at my friendster

Away

Hi ppl , i will be away to Hang Zhou fo rmy band competition from 30 oct - 6nov.

I will miss all of you boo hoo hoo.. sad sad
Miss Ah teckii birtay and hema birthdy sry

MY bro bd

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha 9 more days to JOSHUA NG HIANG TECK BIRTHDAY :-) 15 YEAARS OLD LIAO :):):):):):):):):):):):)

Holiday=busy

Hi Hi ppl , sry long time no post liao, i noe my blog rotting and ODIE i post liao hor... Any way this few weeks, a lot of thing had happen and a lot of them has to do with my own fault.
Thx to some ppl to be by my side, when i really need a sholder to cry on, espically JON and ODIE :) thx baby.

For those ppl who really want to noe wat really happen , this is wat happen,
Last mon i went vivo to watch `HOUSE BUNNY` with part of my class, i lost my wallet and it include my IC, EZlink, MY TKD `BLACK BELT PASS`, money:( and a lot more, but the worst isnt this , it was the conflict with my parents , and the harm of my friends. tad feeling was really..... i had to run away from home to cool myself down, i have never done tad in my whole life, but i really want to thank HIANG TECK and NICHOLAS, for the soothing words and advice, thx .

The other is my result . Althoght i improve my L1R4/L1R5, postition and class position. i was not happy, cause i disappointed a lot of ppl who helped me, ppl like MR SU, MR TAN, MISS CHEONG and a lot more. and i really am damm stupid, i knew prefect camp cant be held on 17th but i did nothing to stop it, arggg how fastrating is tad, stupid man , how usless am i ..........

I am leaving to Hang Zhou on the 3o OCT to 6 Nov and i going to miss my best bud birthday, sry :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(, dui bu qi, i get a present 4 u ok:)... But this Hang Zhou had really test my limit man, weather is acadmically, mentally, physically, and muscially, i am challanged too. As you know there is a holiday lesson on the 29 to the 6,, and wat the teachers is going to teach is not going to be taught again, and i really need tad time to learn and i cant belevie it . I AM MISSING IT。。。。。。 How am i going to cathc up and i really need that cathch up, or i really have no time left, some body tell me how, should i blam the sch 4 losly planning, or is it i have too much thing to do / attend. how howhow.......... god damm it man....

In prefect , however i am really putting hope on the sec2 , please help me continue my journey, the rest is up to u all, althought is sadning to see some of u all leave espically those potential ones, but u are the elities, so u all can do it.

I am having so many thing to do with so little time, hope i didnt like ps some ppl, cause i am really busy this hoilday , i hope u all understand :)

But i still will relax, sometimes by playing table tennies with dog and nick, they are the best man,
Thx best friend, and pork.