Loney

Wat is wrong these few days man!!!! i cant take it . i did not noe wat i did now the intensity is so high i am going to break down anytime!!!!!!!!!, now the influence is spreading so much tad i am really feeling damm damm bad.

SO freak out this week, before chi exam, got too EMO because of, then cant even think of the test and dragged some ppl down , 2 minutes before exam start, someone took my dictionary then in the end lucky ced lend me or else did le. lucky after tad someone help me chill out thx someone.

I am also going crazy!!!!! i cant even do a simple test no matter how simple i keep failing, my pillars of support is also falling. I FEEL SO USELESS, I CANT EVEN EXCEL IN MY FAVOURITE THINGS, NOR ANYTHING I CANT EVEN GET FACTS RIGHT !!!!! i keep surpressing people because of the wrong thing i did , within the 4 of us, i am the worst, the loser, the lowest in acadmic, not a good HP, cant even do the simple thing, nor plan it.!!!!!! i keep thinking if i have a chance to get to a roof top , i will end my trouble there , i do not need any stress, no one to betray you, dun have to care 4 anything.

I have disappointed a lot of people, wats the point of staying!!! i just feel so tired so usless so ....

i DUN Noe how to continue this journy any more, i just try my best , but i am still useless, i cant even help out my friends anything nor even the one i understand the most!!!! Simply to put it I AM SO DAMM USELESS, AND JUST A HUMAN WITH NOTHING ANYMORE. I AM SORRY TO SOME PEOPLE WHO LOOK UP TO ME AS A ROLE MODEL, I AM SORRY I DISAPPOINTD YOU ALL:~
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Ha today is the 1st day of EYE social studies paper- haha i enjoy doing the paper thank you nicholas for the notes.English paper 1 - writing funny stories.....any way i want to thank nicholas tei for:

• All the thing u done for me



• CMA



• Lecturing me



• suaning me



• Reprimanding me



• massaging me



• conforting me



• not wishing good luck to me



• hitting me



• saying i fat, but you look rich too hahah



• doing proposal for me



• making me jelous

Any way sorry abt wat happen (hehehe) sorry sorry:p

Hai there is something tad happen again, sad sad

Seem like all the fun thing i like is so difficult to get it

when u never fall u never learn

patience for you have breach

patience for me is going boom

see u like this every day hurts me a lot

but in the end,i will soon have to hurt you

because of the stubbornous you gave,

i have a greater amount of pain i will get. family problem is always the worst

Thank you

Hi Friends,
I believe some people may have sense that something is wrong with me and start conforting me, for those people i really want to thank you. let me eleborate.
As these few weeks as you noe a lot of thing is happening to me, i beigin to change my character, get very irratating, hackcare abt some thing . FOR THAT I AM REALLY SORRY, i guess this is how i vent my stress ba, cause even some of my friends are not understanding me and i dun want to show you all the EMO side of me, well i guess this is how i dealth with it,

I really like to thank ppl who gave me advice, confort me, all of a sudden closness with me. i really appraciated tad. sorry for shannon jerlyn and gang tad i PS you all those few weeks, cause there is a reason behind it.

Any way back to my life again, well as usual my a math and e math and bio is really giving me headech, a math 20 over 60 wa, i really practice very hard but i still cant understand why i just cant do it when i am doing a test. it is so irrating, BIO i have to stress myself to learn as i really want to do miss cheong proud and myself .A mtah e math , i really disspoint a lot of ppl ,espically those who supported me , i am really sorry.And toking abt math, Hiang teck if you see this relax ok:) you just have to know tad i will be there for u when u need it, dun get too upset abt the marks, most importanly is abt the knoledge to do on tad day ok :).

Today is Jerlyn birthday happy 16 years old jerlyn :P, can go watch NC 16 le hahah, sry cant celebrate with you today, cause i got too many thing to do liao.
0700 - 1600 @ school study study
1645 - 2200 @ tuition centre study study
so sry abt tad.

Ok enought abt me.
I Really really really really really really really want to say a big Thank you , To all my friends really, ppl like OBS PPL thaks for the motivation, ok when there is a will there is a way hpe to meet u all again,
Xstudent thank for being there to help out and give advice everytime, you all are really like my uncle hahaha,
3E5 for being so fun everytime
Teachers to support me and council me:)
AND Finally I AM PROUD TO SAY my best friend, thx for being there indirectly, i noe you scold for the better of me, i think you should know that is you ba . thx best friend meow wroof.

and thx for some ppl tad i always tad that you are not there but actually you are, thx

I just want to thank anybody tad i noe, THANK YOU,

OH any way prefects keelp you 17, 18 19 of december free, as you will get to have fun with me and the camp, this time got smt speical , OUR VERY OWN PREFECT CAMP TEE hhaha hope u all will come this time is gonna be special.
EXCO keep 16 17 18 19 free, we camp one more day more than them, we going to have steamboat bonding dinner, it will be fun so i hope u all will come help me plan the event i cant do it alone. Lets us all work together as one ok:):):):)

The wind is changing direction,

My friends are coming back,

maybe because of the darkside that prevents me from seeing them

but tad doesn t mean tad all trouble will be gone,

this is just the beginning

hope to keelp everything like this,

i dun want to loose my friend again like last year

i am scared

to loose a friend again

so please i have to cherist mt friends.

END

Love suan-ning DOG

Fasturated

Today is the last day of band practice, but hai, i should feel bad cause we are going HANG ZHOU for competition, but however, i see ppl are not serious in this,usually band is a place i enjoy the most out of stress and doing my favourite thing playin music, but so far it changes now how i wish if i dun need to go i will not go , cause i see no fun there any more,,,,, instead i feel worried for the band,. YHHB takin part in the band cat and creative cat which we haven even noe how to play , and now left bloody less 10 days of practice left after the exam, HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW, i noe when there is a will there is a way but the way isnt enought to win the competition, i want to do YHHB a good name, but i dun think i every will.

I have lost hope to fight for it

This isnt wat it should be

People say they know wat they are doing

How true is tad??

There isnt any sense of urgency there anymore

My playground has fallen

My love for something is gone

Instead i got stress in return.

Help is needed just call out.

Today also got Exco meeting, But all my Exco has become....I am really trying, why cant anybody see it and help it!!! all of complaint have been taken seriously by me but talk but no action, i have none of the heart to punish you , but i got legs over my head now, define help , sry seems like help is nowhere found in everyones dictionary. Care is also gone, i have shown it but no one understand the care i give , wats the use now !!!

Even i ever tad the who should be my b friend is fading away, loneless is coming to me,no one understand how i feel now.

Patience is thing that prevent ... thing from happening

But it has limit

Onces limt is breach

Who knows wat will happen

Friends are your supporting pillars

who seems to be falling

help is a way of calling

which cannot be understand

Care is something tad you shows someone

and love and help the person

I found it going down the drain

Darkness is a disease tad is painful

Creeping to me day by day

Love is something i am finding

but a sholder tad is from the freezer has been given

Time heals the wound

Which makes other feel better

and is killing me

Friends

The stress is getting nearer but i am still trying to stand up to face it, i am tired, but there is no one i can go to anymore, no one anymore.... thing are getting difficult for me but easier for them, i am really tired, sombody help me!!!!!

Stop the pain now, EVERYONE

DOwned

Hi people, sry so long didnt blog le, cause the moment i got back from OBS so much things happen and i dunno wat is going on with me,
*Prefects
*Acadmic dropping
*Band things
*Something happen with .......
*Frineds Emoing
*EYE
*Cheer up
*Prefect mag
*OBS mag
Hai so many things man, and the worst is something is happening with me and the p..., i need to stay away for a while , it is really so complicated i dun know wat is going on!!!!! Help me i didnt mean

And hi OBS people, sry didnt online so long le,oh anyone got photo of OBS can sent me thx.


To talk abt prefects , prefect sry sec 3 prefect of wat happen , but can u all try to understand thx:( There is a few ppl i would like to thank but it doesnt mean if i didnt put your name it means tad i dun want to thank you, all of u are important to me,
*Nicholas-for being there
*Johnson-To understand wat is going on and thx for everything.
*Navin-To still continue doing you duty without complain
*Gurmeet-to be there for every one and doing ur duty
*Yu ting-to take care of prefect and doing duty.
*Kai yuan - to be there indirectly
*And all sec 2 and 3 prefect to stay commited
I am sry if u all dislike the board, i have to admit i didnt take it propely when i first got it, i hope to meet all sec 3s to talk abt everything.

People to thx
Hiang teck(bro)-Thx for all the suaning , and encouragement but dun be too emo, and i will owe u

Hema-for being there

Valan- To be such a cute nu er

Ai po- to be my CLOWN

. now back to everything, EYE also coming le and i dun think i am prepared, i hope to stay in this class 3e5, well partly because of the subject. but mostly of a few ppl :)

But sry p...s i dun think i want to talk to u all for the moment, is either me or u all, but i hope i did nothing to u .......

sorry shannon